FINE

"How ya doing?"
"I'm fine ..."

Fine ... Someone told me "fine" is code for ~

F - frustrated
I - insecure
N - neurotic
E - emotional

~ which is how I often REALLY feel :-(

I'm frustrated at not yet being fully healed.
I'm insecure about my ability to complete a century.
I'm neurotic about getting back on some kind of a training schedule.
I'm emotional about feeling like this, when I know I should just be grateful to be alive.

So that's how i'm really feeling.